What day is it?

They’re all starting to bleed together

I like growing my bangs out

So that they can’t see me cry

They hate it when I cry

It’s a painful sight

Imagine how I feel


Why hit me with your best shot

When you could just try not to hit me

I’m not who I used to be

I am unapologetically me

This hurts, but I know it will be worthwhile

I’ve been washed away

That’s when I found the sweetest shore

The needle in the haystack got swallowed by my heart

I can’t dance without tears in my eyes


How am I?

How am I?

How am I not insane?

All work and no play

Nearly killed me

All play and no work

Also nearly killed me


Awake and asleep at the same time

What time is it?

That’s dominated so much of my life

That it barely matters anymore

Am I starting to deteriorate again?

I swear that I didn’t mean to


I’m always at my best

After I fall apart

Why is that?


Bitter Whiskey Sour

Nothing about me is surface level

As good as I try to be and inherently am,

I’ll never be a perfect person

Back-to-back intense nightmares

Caused by intense insecurities

Leave me out of breath when I wake up


Sometimes, all I see is envy

I feel trapped by circumstances

Out of my control

Then, I let myself feel inferior to

Everyone living their lives

The ways that I want to live mine

It’s like bad people keep getting rewarded

And good people keep getting left in the dust


I don’t necessarily hold grudges

I recognize that forgiveness doesn’t equal forgetting

I don’t let bitterness run my life

So, I have the right to let myself feel it in the moment

To grieve

To turn writer’s block into an exposé

Made up of pretty sounding words


I can’t seem to concentrate

Unless I’m happy

All lemon juice, no sugar

What were you saying about lemonade?

What if that shit expired?

I feel safe in my headspace

And sometimes, I just don’t

I simply wish to enjoy my life

Without feeling like I’m wasting it


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I don’t always know what to say

I don’t always know what to do

That doesn’t mean I’m not trying

I get lost and scared

I feel sad, hopeless, and anxious

That doesn’t mean I’m not trying

Don’t trust inaccurate perception


You all claimed to know me so well

The truth is, you never knew me at all

My personality, interests, and dreams

Are too mutable to fit a mold

I only chase the sun when it shines

And when it rains, it pours and I cry


I haven’t believed in myself enough

I let fear drive me crazy

Now, I’m noticing a change

Nothing is flawless

But I finally know what happiness is

Don’t act like you know best

When you barely understand

What I’ve been through

What I’m still going through

When you don’t even try


Forever asking myself

Does this feel like me?


Sunday sadness

Seeps into every day of the week

All my life,

Never realized

Because I didn’t understand yet


They told me I’m pretty

When I hated looking in the mirror

A picture perfect picture

Instead of a person

Today, my feelings are less mixed [up]


Worth it

Worth what?

Don’t tell me what to do

Unless I need you to

Maybe she’s worth it

Worth what?

Being broken like an attacked heart?

Don’t touch me

I’ll figure out how to fix me


They said be the best

What if that’s not what I can be?

They said try your best

I tried and tried and tried and…

I get worse instead of better

I hope that someday my tomorrow

Will have better weather


I have trouble letting go

Unless I’m on the edge of falling

Off the face of the brutal earth

Fighting to be happy

Fighting to live for as much as possible


I’m tired of losing track of chances

Giving them away until I don’t want them back

I’m so tired

Because I overthink

Instead of getting enough sleep

Help me

Save me

It’s never too late to drown

… I scare myself sometimes


Just because I’m sitting still

Doesn’t mean I’m not moving

The gears in my mind

Are always turning

Even when I have writer’s block

My stomach is often churning

And I forget to breathe

Tug-of-war between my head and heart

I don’t give up

Let me rest in peace