Autopsy

I returned from a war that never ends

Fighting a losing battle that I sometimes win

I want to be known, but invisible

Don’t say my name, but also do

My heart screams to the heavens

From the underworld

Raised to appreciate the spotlight and attention

But I need time to withdraw to survive

 

Confidence is my question that has no answer

“Just do this, just do that”

”Just be this, just be that”

”Just say this, just say that”

Listen, you can’t just throw me into open season

I am bold on my own terms

 

Shy to sassy like flicking a light switch

Writing mental prescriptions for adrenaline and sedatives

Naked in the sky with diamonds

Then, running to hide behind the next lunar eclipse

I’m not ready until I say so

But as soon as I am, you’ve got a big storm coming

 

An affinity for morbid humor and a habit of biting my tongue

A vice of a desire to hurt and a longing to heal

I’d rather cry every day than feel numb

I’m not afraid to be open anymore

Not completely unafraid though

But I’ll make it work

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Charismatic

I don’t live in luxury

So, that means I have to hate the skin I’m in?

And so that you can sell your products?

What photoshopped happiness is this?

 

Consume more pain

The temporary pleasure will take the pain away

You need a magazine cover to be original

People will tell other people to respect your privacy

So that they can invade it in peace

And nothing is more real than reality TV

 

How do you love

When your favorite person is your favorite object?

How do you live with yourself

When you make someone not want to live themselves?

I don’t see the appeal

Of getting popular from who or what you steal

Beating broken hearts black and blue

 

You’ve got the look

All you need is the image

Don’t be yourself

Unless you have nothing to lose

 

There’s no time like tonight

Let’s catch up when there’s no time

I love what you can do for me

Lovingly Jaded

Breathe in, breathe out

Don’t hold your breath

Let it go

That’s what they captioned

Dropping morality like dropping beats

A smile isn’t pretty

Unless the location is paradise

When did love become

Synonymous with sponsorships?

 

It’s not a total dystopia

True feelings always fester

Until they are exposed

For better and worse

Do you love for love

Or for the numbers?

 

It’s so easy nowadays

To disregard truth and authenticity

On the social climb to the social top

Are you capable of being real

Purely for the sake of being real?

 

Everybody’s got issues

Admitting when it’s convenient

If the apology made headlines,

Then surely, it came from the heart

We’re living in a new and improved

Feudal system

Where control and bad blood

Are necessary for friendship

 

An image tells a story

Fictional or nonfictional

At least we’re talking about it

The apple of soulless eyes

 

If it’s the slightest bit scandalous

It’s time to blow it out of proportion

Serious problems don’t matter

When we’ve got entertainment!

When did love become

Synonymous with entitlement?

 

Fame, our dearest lover

What we wouldn’t do for you

We would die for you

Spiderweb

You changed everything

About yourself

You are not a trendsetter

You are a trend-follower

And you know it too

You are just too absorbed in pride

To admit it

 

They are all too clueless

To know the real you

The only thing

You’re passionate about is

Keeping a reputation

You never were and never will be

A symbol of perfection

Everyone is caught

In your spiderweb of lies

Except me

 

Somehow, you’ve got people fooled

They swarm around you like flies

You are adored as if you were royalty

All you do is entertain

And send false messages

All you give me are fake vibes

 

Why must you constantly be

The center of attention?

There is more to life

Than money and popularity

I will congratulate you

Once you’ve hit rock bottom

And you finally see what you are

And how much madness surrounds you

 

For as long as you have lived,

You’ve spun a spiderweb

That keeps catching viewers

But I’ll remain turned off

Illusion

Here we stand

At the crossroads

Of a burning bridge

I just want to leap

Into your arms

And make sure we both

Fall over the edge

All my life, I’ve waited

Procrastinated

For a love that shatters the stars

All your life, you’ve been hiding

Whining

About a love that never shuffled your cards

 

And now in our own sweet pain,

We collide

And now in our own desperate truth,

We’ll watch the world divide

 

It’s a good insane

When there’s no road to take

When one image overwhelms your brain

Distorted fragments to make life interesting

When the one you can’t live

With or without

Is the one

That you love to hate

 

Here we lie

On a silky

Bed of nails

I just need you

To hold me down

Until we’ve both

Been impaled

Because I’m not going down

Without a fight

And neither are you

As strange as it sounds,

That’s what makes us the perfect two

 

And now in our own bitter world,

Hearts will explode

But now, we are safe

Like refugees

Finding their way back home

 

There’s no real love

Without the bruises

We take what we can get

There’s no desire to lose it

In an imperfect world,

We crave this illusion of perfection

 

I’m not okay

Unless you’re disagreeing with me

That’s my only way to know

That you’ll stay with me

 

There’s no real love

Without the bruises

In an imperfect world,

We crave this beautiful illusion