Belonging

I can’t help it

If I am simultaneously

Finding and losing myself

I don’t have much control

Over how quickly my heart

Beats

Falls

Breaks

Mends

 

Time’s breath always on my neck

 

Big dreamer with a quiet voice

Bedroom eyes with a savior’s soul

I have yet to know what it’s like

To love and be loved in return

Is that too much to ask for?

Jealousy disguised as roses

My light as strong as gnarled thorns

As everyone around me has beautiful experiences

They know I’m here, but I’m invisible

I don’t trust just anybody with my darkness

 

Time’s breath holding my hair in a clenched fist

 

Laughing

Crying

Living

Dying

Listening

Observing

Yearning

Ignoring

 

You can’t force me to be an open book

Yet, whenever I am, it’s shocking

Guess the truth is out

Innocent girls make the best headlines

Fortunately, I’m not extra

You can read all about it

Next time you want to chase a waterfall

The fish are waiting

 

Time’s breath ghosting over my lips

 

Wishing

Hoping

Understanding

Pain is all-knowing

 

Time’s breath settling between my legs

 

Sobbing

Smiling

Believing

Time’s breath inflating

My lungs

Morose clouds hanging

Over my head

A vintage silver lining

I belong to me

Seasons go by

People will come and go in life

But that truth stands the test of time