Tangent

There’s nothing I want to forget

Even the negativity

And things I may regret

Because I don’t know

If I’d be happy without them

If I’d be exactly who I am today

Without them

 

I don’t seem to mind being alone

Even when I feel lonely

Someone is always watching

I like being free

 

On the rare occasions

That I write massive paragraphs and posts

About what I’ve been through

Or am going through

I still leave out information

 

I need to go after what I want

Particularly when it comes to love

Fight for it and not so readily sulk in pain and defeat

Love and personal growth are worth the fight

 

It’s okay to be optimistic

Because it can be confidence’s sidekick

But still,

I try to be as realistic as possible

 

I’m the cherry on top

Of an emotional avalanche sundae

”I’m melting! I’m melting!”

Did you hear that?

Of course you didn’t

I don’t feel like yelling

My heart is a halo

Regardless of whether it’s broken or unbroken

 

Broad spectrum of ways to express myself

To document my life

Feeling more confident

Fitting in while standing out

Abundance of outlets

Life could become slightly easier

Still stressed, even when happy

I think I already reached my peak

But I also don’t think I have yet

Maybe I have multiple peaks

Since there’s so many mountains to climb

Heights of every height to reach

Equations

When are you going to be good at math?

Why are you so quiet?

Why are you the way that you are?

Did you know that you’re still the same and changing?

It doesn’t matter

 

Why aren’t you more confident?

What do you have to be insecure about?

You’re such a nice girl!

Therefore, you must be nice all the time 

Even when you’re disrespected and put down 

Wow

 

When are you going to have your first date?

Your first kiss?

Your first relationship?

When are you going to lose your virginity?

When the time is right and I’m ready

 

Since you’re already *insert age here*,
What do you want to do with your life?

When are you going to get your driver’s license?

When are you going to graduate?

When are you going to get married?

When are you going to have kids?

Please leave me alone

 

Why won’t you tell every person

Inside and outside of your life

Every single detail of your personal life?

When will you stop being depressed?

When will you stop being anxious?

 

You don’t need to know everything about me

To care about me

Mental health is real

For the most part, I’m happy, healthy, and alive

My love and body are my prerogative

Don’t let anyone make you feel less than

For being human

On your own timeline and at your own pace

The human race is not a race

 

 

Supernatural Supreme

Making it a new routine

To hit myself up every day

To check in, make sure I’m doing okay

If not, will make a change

My birth was no accident

Manifesting all day and night

I always knew how to fly

The goal is to take that leap

 

Take chances I’m given

Take chances before they’re taken away

Psychic, but more on the intuitive side

Constantly shocking everybody, including me

 

Where am I?

Anywhere I’m meant to be in life

I do what I want, like, love, and need

Nobody knows that better than me

 

The energy around me feels different

But not in an off way

Touching glimmers of light and darkness

With a dual purpose

They Say If You Dream a Thing More Than Once, It’s Sure to Come True

Fabricated nonfiction- yikes

Fiction based on reality- yikes, but meaningful

Pay attention

Everybody’s got a story to tell

 

My vision may not be 20/20

But I’m not blind to what goes on around me

If you could feel

Everything that I feel

On any given day or night,

Would you want to live or die?

 

Running in imperfect circles

Words in the form of jagged lines

Sometimes, I start writing something

Just to see what happens

Provoking a concept

Provoking myself

Provoking my will to live

Several pages later

Better late than never

 

The more exhausted I get with life,

The less frequently I wear a bra

And what about it?

My golden body, my golden rules

 

Making a mental getaway

Do not disturb

You’ll remember my name

Why wait until my funeral to read this?

On a “I don’t care what you think of me” wave

Depending on the context of the situation of course

Living in an age

Where clowns lead parades

 

But enough about me

How are you?

Are you making the time and space

To be both selfless and selfish too?

 

A New Kind of Serendipity

I give up

No, I don’t

I’m a waste of space

No, I’m not

My next move is my next goal, big or small

 

My dreams and health come first

Wait your turn

I’m carrying an empty treasure chest inside me

Fill me up buttercup

 

It’s my heaven and I’ll cry if I want to

It’s my graveyard and I’ll die if I want to

Even if I have to fake it

When you won’t let me take my time

 

I’m not what they told me I am

I’m not what I told myself I am

Not the greatest or the worst

But more than I think

And less than a forced pedestal

You’re not who you think you are

You are you!

Autopsy

I returned from a war that never ends

Fighting a losing battle that I sometimes win

I want to be known, but invisible

Don’t say my name, but also do

My heart screams to the heavens

From the underworld

Raised to appreciate the spotlight and attention

But I need time to withdraw to survive

 

Confidence is my question that has no answer

“Just do this, just do that”

”Just be this, just be that”

”Just say this, just say that”

Listen, you can’t just throw me into open season

I am bold on my own terms

 

Shy to sassy like flicking a light switch

Writing mental prescriptions for adrenaline and sedatives

Naked in the sky with diamonds

Then, running to hide behind the next lunar eclipse

I’m not ready until I say so

But as soon as I am, you’ve got a big storm coming

 

An affinity for morbid humor and a habit of biting my tongue

A vice of a desire to hurt and a longing to heal

I’d rather cry every day than feel numb

I’m not afraid to be open anymore

Not completely unafraid though

But I’ll make it work

Complications

Deep down, I bet you know

How to play heartstrings and heartbeats

Until a great song is born

My own insecurities have me thinking I’m delusional

Until you explain yourself

Which is more than others can say

I’m not the only one

Who is into you

But I am the only one

Who is into every part of you

The good and bad

Into loving every part of you

Not to use you

 

The vibe is right

You can run and hide

I’ll still be right here waiting

For you to come back to life

 

Don’t speak

Unless you are speaking your truth

You need someone who can keep you grounded

When your head ignores gravity

And someone who lets you fly

When you just need to be happy and survive

You’re like a boomerang in my mind

I’m not complaining

And clearly not impatient

My heart is breaking through my chest

 

There are times when time lies

It would be easier to blame myself

Than admit that love hurts when it’s real

It’s all I have and I want to share it

I shouldn’t say give it away

Because that leads to self hate

You’re the same way

And that’s why I give you the benefit of the doubt

Your actions and words keep coming full circle

Lemon Moonbeams

I should turn the tables

I’ll be the one that got away

Unless you change your mind

While you still have time

You wouldn’t be settling

If you just slowed down

My champion muse

Marathon of passionfruit

Nobody feels like you

 

Love that tastes like scarred diamonds

That takes you on the ride of your life

Is meant to last

I’m coming in first place

According to the pieces of my mind

That lucky for you,

You occupy

I’ll light up your room

And your soul

 

Naughty and nice

Rose water to nourish a crown of thorns

And vice versa

Every phase is full

A lady or a siren

Why can’t I be both?

Read and listen to my stories

To write your songs

I am inspiration when let in

 

Do you want forever?

Be mine

This isn’t a proposition

It’s a blessing

Fate is no coincidence

 

A reincarnation

Of Persephone’s heart

You could be the authentic Adam

To my flourishing Eve

And yet, you’re still doubting me?

Choose your words carefully

Because I promise that I’m better with them

I’ll make you eat your heart out

And eventually, you’ll realize

That I fixed every broken piece of it

Because I care

 

For so long, the goddess in me was missing

But it’s not about lost and/or found

It’s who I am

I believe in you too, by the way

Miracles have a way of standing out in the crowd

And nobody feels like me

Don’t Start Something You Can’t Finish Unless You’re Going to Let Me Have the Last Word

The world is your mattress

Don’t forget to give your heart

A final resting place

Act until it’s not acting anymore

Stop surfing channels

I can ride your tidal waves

If we’re on the same wavelength

Not a phase unless you let it be nothing more

Time spent with me is high quality

Just putting that out there

There’s more to people than their issues

Has anyone told you that before?

Running through minds is my cardio

If you were mine,

I wouldn’t keep you from being you

Just saying

 

I’ve never been in love

Yet, I show and give so much love

Can you imagine how Aphrodite I would be

With the right person?

Guess what?

I’m not dangerous

 

Have you ever upgraded

From yellow to gold?

Not fool’s gold

Real gold

Natural, not forced love

I’m not cheap

I’m free

 

Dance on tables

Jump on unmade beds

Singing lullabies that don’t lead into horror movies

Wishing on stars instead of white noise

Like you used to

 

Stay awake with me

And you’ll have nothing but sweet dreams

I’ll show you love that lasts

Love that stays

Cheaters only cheated themselves

When they lost your love

Treat me how I deserve

And I’ll reciprocate

With unwavering certainty

You’ve been a lot of places

I can take you where you’ve never been

Hold your heart like it’s sacred

Why would I want to break it

When I know exactly how that feels?

Touch you like a miracle

Give your head a rest

Match your passion

With my everything

Ignorance would be reckless

Lungs of the Insiders

I won’t let this all be in vain

Don’t let these precious moments suffocate

Nobody knows us better

Than we know each other

It doesn’t have to be impossible

 

You are more than okay

You are so strong, wonderful, and incredible

Heaven’s light, even when you’re going through hell

I wish that you could hold me longer

I wish that every word spoken

Could be a continuous love letter

You make me braver

Let me be your once upon a dream

Your happily ever after

Because in hard times,

Writing fairytales takes time

 

You have my confession

You take my breath away

Sweep my heart out of my ribcage

This could be bigger than us

Bigger than love