Sensitive

I could never be stoic

It’s impossible

I’ve got the world on my shoulders

And the world’s emotions in my heart

Being sensitive doesn’t mean

That I’m stupid, weak, or naive

My heart beats for love

And that gives me all of the strength

That I could ever need

You don’t know what I’m thinking

But I know how you’re feeling

Because I likely feel it too

Tender and tough

I won’t hide how I feel

Or how you make me feel

For your comfort

I feel with my whole body

Taking over all of my thoughts

Never really over

I’m a sensitive soul

Must be where my wisdom comes from

There is no textbook

That can teach you life lessons

There is no shame or abnormality

In having and showing feelings

It’s contagious

Overwhelmed with tears, smiles, screams, conversations, and silence

It’s not easy

But I wouldn’t change it

I was born ready

One Lifetime at a Time

Learning to take life one day at a time

Makes me want to stay alive

Trying to feel light

And find the light

When this year has been dark and heavy

From the very beginning

Wrong to miss the past

When change is so necessary

 

I don’t know how I survive

I just do

I don’t think that time has ever felt real

 

Interludes arrive

And you have no clue how to spend this free time

And before you know it, it’s over

 

As an empath in these times,

It feels like my heart is on fire

Messing with my head

And it’s everybody’s fault

Including my own

I will be vague and specific simultaneously

Finding your peace, while finding your voice

Is exhausting

And an extraordinary thing

 

Learning to take life one day at a time

Makes me want to stay alive

 

Infinity and Beyond On High

I never want to change who I am

Everyone else does it for me

Depending on the point-of-view, I’m strong or broken

Joke’s on you because I’m both

And everything in between

 

I’m emotionally overbearing

With an unlimited supply of empathy

I’m guilty of victimizing myself out of fear

Along with falling for other people’s games out of love

I live in an almost constant state of insecurity

I said almost

 

I worry about being unloveable

At the same time, I know for a fact

That I’m so deserving

 

It can take me years to speak up

But when I do, I say it all

Opening the floodgates

I don’t understand the difference

Between love and infatuation

Between true and fake friends

Between genuine family members and selfish manipulators

Until I’ve gotten hurt or taken advantage of

Learned the same lesson again and again

 

I’m amazing in many ways

Beautiful inside and out

I’m a gift to know

And capable of impactful things

I bring light to the darkness

No matter how I’m feeling

I’m a heart-to-heart listener

A potential bestseller

Sweet and smart

Still alive

 

Demons throughout the course of my life,

Online, and in my mind

Told me I’m never good enough

For a multitude of reasons

I beg your fucking pardon

I am a delight

Supernatural Supreme

Making it a new routine

To hit myself up every day

To check in, make sure I’m doing okay

If not, will make a change

My birth was no accident

Manifesting all day and night

I always knew how to fly

The goal is to take that leap

 

Take chances I’m given

Take chances before they’re taken away

Psychic, but more on the intuitive side

Constantly shocking everybody, including me

 

Where am I?

Anywhere I’m meant to be in life

I do what I want, like, love, and need

Nobody knows that better than me

 

The energy around me feels different

But not in an off way

Touching glimmers of light and darkness

With a dual purpose

Enhanced Dimensions

Could be a paradox

How sleeping can either kill you

Or help you live longer

The seasons changed

But my mind did not

On the contrary, my energy shifted

Quite a lot

You’re only a good listener

If you truly listen

When someone tells you the truth

About you

Meanwhile, dreaming about thoughts

And thinking about dreams

 

I never said that I was always right or wrong

Just trying to put myself out there

Bare my soul

Without losing sight of myself

And what matters most

 

If there’s someone out there

Watching over me

From another space or time,

Please give me a hint

About who you are

That I didn’t truly see

Who’s been in front of me all along

Because I’ve swallowed so many hard pills

That I’m dehydrated

Maybe just one more…

 

Patience saved me

I know that I’m happy

In another world

But I want to be happy here too

Because this is my home

I deserve that at least

Introduction to Energy

Life is lived to the fullest

Based on your own measurements

Not according to society’s lies

If you’re not causing harm,

Keep saying and doing

What they don’t like

Slow progress is far more impactful

Than fast regression

Don’t play yourself in the movie

Be yourself

Everyone’s ordinary is different

 

Placing psychic bets

Reading unspoken words

They don’t know how I do it

 

The widest distance

Can’t separate our hands

The wildest circumstances

Can’t tame our hearts

 

Confuse your enemies

Like printing cursive

Like my home state’s weather

Keep loving louder

They don’t know what to do with themselves

So, they blame everything on you

But you have nothing to be sorry for

You’re not obligated to keep them close

Just hold them accountable

 

A fool can’t survive in these eyes

Poetry roams through the streets

To paint our veins

The driver or passenger side

Doesn’t make a difference to me

As long as you stay with me

Because I just might change your life

Mind Love

Can there be an in between

Living in the moment

And getting too caught up in it?

Hard to tell if I’m clawing at

The finish line or an escape

I want to believe that I’ll be okay

Because I need to

Because I will

In the past, I’ve been too nice

I still am nice, but not to add to the debt

The ultimate call out post:

Stop treating loyalty like a paradox!

 

 

My decisions are of my design

I’m the only one who can truly control my life

If I go with the flow,

It’s to stay afloat

So, let me

You see clean

I see explicit

 

 

Mind more than body fucking

My skin may always be cold

But my heart and passion certainly are not

I miss you when you’re gone

I miss you when you’re here

I make you feel like you have it all

This is both my strength and downfall

Official without the label

I keep everyone guessing

While being obvious

Teardrops and smiles are lucid

 

 

Happy pills or choices

Imagination or destiny

Dream or dream

Dream in order to dream

Even if it kills us,

It won’t

Description

I am alone and not alone

At the same damn time

I set boundaries

And sometimes let people break them

Without realizing

I’m a mess and okay with that

Also, I’m not okay with that

I feel both dead and alive

Remind me that you love me on sight

Maybe I’ll believe you

I can’t be optimistic

Without being pessimistic

And I can’t be pessimistic

Without being optimistic

I have a lot of feelings

Not all of them are even mine

Artificial Sunrise

Other halves aren’t a necessity

I can be whole on my own

It does get lonely out here on my own

I value the times when I am alone

That doesn’t mean I’m better off that way

Sad, sick, and tired

Of wishing for happiness

Love isn’t a simple once upon a time

With a smooth transition to happily ever after

 

Just stay away from me

Unless you have pure intentions

Reasons, excuses, casanova foolishness

I don’t need any of it

I’ve been through enough

I’ve been hurt enough

I need to keep reminding myself

That my butterflies for you aren’t all dead

But you’re not perfect

You’re wrong for me

 

Turn me to dust

Maybe my heart can’t be ripped out

If I keep it close to me

Turn me to stone

Harden my emotions

Still soft-hearted

 

Jaded

Frustrated

Who’s more damaged

Me or my type?

I resign from playing waiting games

There’s only so many times

A heart can break

There’s only so much

That I can take

Take your antics and battlefields

To a woman who doesn’t care

 

I’ll never stop trying

But the little girl who fell at feet

Is long gone

She moved on

She can still fall in love

If you love the self

That she learned to love

Shameless Liability

Am I an important person in your life

Or just a guilty pleasure?

Am I here to provide meaning

Or validation?

I don’t need your approval

You could honestly learn from me

 

Sorry you got bored of me

Your loss

Sorry I was too much

Your loss

Sorry I wasn’t enough

Your loss

I almost changed for you

What was I thinking?

I never conform

Unless it’s an emergency

All I can ever be is me

 

I feel with the force of nature

I break down side-by-side

With extreme weather

I’ve sacrificed more for the betterment of others

Than for myself

So, my puzzle is missing several pieces

When it comes to walking away,

I’m always late

I’ve lived for so long

So timid and afraid

Being okay with being weak

Before I considered leaving,

They’d already walked all over me

 

In spite of it all,

My heart has only grown with me

I’m taking my power back

Setting fire to the past

I’m half dead, half alive

Unashamed of my inner tug-of-war

If I say I love or care about you,

I mean it with everything I have in me

I am time’s acid-tongued enemy