Moments of Weakness

Strength in numbers until the numbers are overwhelming

You could be drenched in sweat

And I’d still run into your arms

I seldom follow my own advice

And have to keep re-learning lessons

Sometimes I feel like pulling my hair out

And sometimes I feel like growing it out

Longing for shelter until it buries me

 

Too hot

Too cold

Deep in the goal of escaping anyone and anything narrow

It’s like the only time I truly embrace fear

Is when I embrace happiness

That “letting go” that everyone speaks of

I needed to take a break

To take a break from breaking

 

I don’t feel accomplished

But I do feel somewhat alive

That’s a head start in my tired, ocean eyes

Pull me out of my own head

I’d prefer to drown in anything else right now

Even if it’s you and you can’t stay

 

I’ve got everybody fooled

Until I can’t take it anymore

That’s what inner strength is for

Stretching the truth until you understand the whole truth

 

I recognize my reflection

The smile pushes through the desert

I’m still falling

My feet just want to land, but there’s no solid ground

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Call Me Felicity

Post-fireworks smoke here

An outpouring of petrichor there

I’m the words that can make you cry

A variety of types of tears

 

What are you thinking about?

I’m preoccupied with thoughts of my future

And thoughts of you

With you?

Wait, who said that?

You too?

 

You deeply touched my heart

Made its fabric softer than it already was

I try to back away from these feelings

But you keep coming back

To pin me to the wall

“V” is for vendetta, valentine, … and so on

 

When in Rome, take me home

You try to distract your heart

And avoid what it wants

But my love is shameless

And I still have you wrapped around my finger

And you love it, admit it

 

You’re the crown jewel of the ball

I want to be your crowning glory

Let’s turn the fantasies of our favorite love songs

Into our reality

Wouldn’t that be a dream come true?

 

I’ll introduce you to the real me

The most beautiful disaster you’ve ever seen

Let me care for the real you

As the sunflowers come into bloom

 

My cheeks hurt

From smiling at the meteor shower

In your eyes

And laughing at something you said or did

Again

Never Lonely

I can’t forgive or forget you

I have no reason to do either

But I don’t need or want you

You always find somebody new

 

I tried harder

Nothing was enough

My heart is just numb to you now

Good thing I replaced you

With health, happiness, and somebody new

 

You and her are in everybody’s face

Not my problem though

I really thought that you grew

Not my fault that you’re still codependent

You don’t know how to give your heart a rest

 

I feel pretty great

I may be alone

But you will always be the lonely one

Because you don’t stay alone for long

Almost Home

I can’t shake the feeling

That all of the waiting

Hasn’t been for nothing

You struggle to be vulnerable

Yet, let your walls fall with me

In heart wrenching honesty

I can put into words how you feel

Be your secret weapon, your lover, your equal

 

Hearts I thought I knew

Turned out blurry

Listening to yours, vision and sound become crystal clear

You are the key

That never fails to unlock me

For the first time,

The angel and devil are in agreement

 

I’m a bloodstain on the carpet

The water behind a dam

You’re a fallen tree

Lava on the verge of eruption

We toss our beating hearts back and forth

But we work so well

Connecting on a deeper level

Like a four-way intersection

Of opposite attraction

 

Taking me for granted

Would be like getting lost in the riptide

Diamonds that are rough around the edges

Are worth the investment

You savor what you save

Still burning

 

Unlimited wishes

Human embodiment of a dream come true

I don’t need symbolism

I need something real

 

We’re not there yet

But the potential never left

Loyalty taller than mountains

The broken pieces are beginning to fall into place

It wasn’t automatic like stereotypes insisted

We let go and set love free

Until love fell in love with itself

Between a Silver Lining and a Hard Place

Aged to perfection

And forever young

Followed by storm clouds

And rays of sunlight

I tried to be someone I’m not

I’m finding someone who I lost

I have open scars from wolves

I’m shedding my naivety

I wish that I followed my intuition every day

I’m trusting myself to be okay

I drowned in my tears

I’m swimming around my soul

I couldn’t save myself

I am saving myself

Torn into pieces

I am my own catch 22

My heart is chronically swollen

But I wouldn’t have it any other way