The Living Dead

The four seasons have gone by

Like a train passing through the countryside

The past is all over the floor

And I’m beginning to fully forgive you

 

We both deserve better

Even if it isn’t each other

I don’t want to overthink this anymore

Break the arrow in half

 

I don’t need a rush to feel alive

I got caught up too much

You’re a risk taker

And a risk giver

Inner peace becomes violent

We’re nothing more than opposites

With similarities

Yet, our connection is larger than life

 

Progress has been made

Never too far away

Only you can change you

Only I can change me

We’re pretty great in our own ways

Painting different pictures

By blending colors

And like raindrops,

We’ll always fall together

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Road Trip

Mascara tears in my mind

Favorite places begin to feel like strangers

I can hear everything you’re not saying

It’s infuriating

 

The world won’t always cater to you

No matter what image of yourself you print

I could’ve sworn you said you’d always be here

Yet, there you are with your arms around somebody else

You weren’t ready for heaven

So, you settled for a basic blank slate

But you can’t clean up your mess this time

 

I don’t love or hate you

I like and resent you

Another scar carved into my tree of life

I don’t wish you the worst or wish you well

I wish you traffic jams and peace

 

I take several steps back

But it’s hard to completely let go

I deserve so much better than this

Where are my keys?

 

I wake up from sweet dreams

Better off without you

 

You’re just as confusing as everyone who confuses you

An apple a day won’t keep the snake bites away

I took the long way home

Turned the corner and saw an angel

I am almost reborn

Plot Twist

She seems easy to impress

Is that why you halfheartedly decided to shoot your shot

And it happened to work out?

I was impressed by everything you did too, but what for?

 

She glows by sunlight

Just like you

I glow by moonlight

Guess neither of you can handle the truth

 

What a coincidence

That you can put “poison” in front of her name

And it would make sense

I see a repeat of history in your future

She seems to adore the spotlight attached to your name

 

Maybe I am jealous

But I’m also hurt and betrayed

Sure, I’ll fully get over it someday

But why should I stay silent in the shadows

For your comfort?

 

You lied

In exchange for my honesty

She may have known you for a long time

But I’ve known you longer

We were growing until you started shrinking

You take me all the way to nothing

Because fuck my feelings

 

You can still be a muse

But you won’t catch me wasting any more love poems on you

I never wanted to feel this way

I saw the good in you all the time

Turns out I only paid attention to the good

And when you made your choice behind my back,

I got sunburned

I’m not wrong unless by some miracle, you prove otherwise

And last at least a year together

She can paraphrase what you literally just said

And you see art

I could’ve opened the doors to new dimensions for you

You’re not as deep as you think you are

Keeping my distance so that you’ll have no control over me

My broken heart will also leave a trail of blood

You’ll never have the guts to forget me

I’ll take over the world by storm

Better than you

 

I doubt you’ll even read this

You’re always busy, which translates to self-involved

And if by chance, you are reading this

It’s too late

The plot twist is you didn’t save my life

I did

Fuck your pride

Brave and Covered in Blood

The sound of silence can be deafening

Standardization was never enough to fix us

Chaotic good is my hero

Wearing white in hopes of being stained red

Blood red, cheered up with wine

Your closest family and friends aren’t that innocent either

Change is the devilish angel there is

Are you in or out?

 

Battle cry of the breakthrough battle

Previously hidden confidence

The sharpest sword is combining it with vulnerability

 

Take a piece of me

But it will always come back to me

Cut me open

And I’ll sew my own stitches

Spill my guts

I swallow truth until I’m broken enough

To break you

Strike you like a viper and you never saw it coming

 

Delicate, sensitive, but not weak

Stab my heart and I only get stronger

Play me for a fool

And I’ll prey on the predator

 

Sleeping Beauty became nightmare fuel

Suffocate me

And I learn to breathe more freely

Kill me

And I’ll haunt you for the rest of your life

And into the afterlife

The wicked deserve no rest

The damsel-in-distress always had dreams

I’ve always been so sweet and put together, right?

But everything is not what it seems

City of Sinful Innocence

Angel wings painted on walls

They wouldn’t exist otherwise

I’m bored of always wanting more

But not much else happens around here

Chasing paper to afford the opportunity

To take aesthetic photos in front of waterfalls

Three cheers for youth, ownership, and off-key symphonies

 

Tired of the small talk traced back to small minds

Rumors preferred over truth

Since you don’t have to hide what’s out in the open

We got everything we wanted and it wasn’t even worth it!

Look at how happy we are!

 

Walk of fame or walk of shame?

It doesn’t matter what you choose

Everything comes with a price anyway

If parties are fun, why is it so easy

To feel like you’re having fun wrong?

That’s no fun

Buzzkill or be killed

 

Grinding until we’re in the ground

Sometimes, sooner than later

What is it all for?

What does it all mean?

Deeply fearful of misplacing the last bit of innocence in me

Memorable

Take your hand off of my heart and go

Me being alone is nothing new

Gives me room to breathe and grow

I’ll never let you take away

The smile that you put on my face

 

We have something

But it’s not as special to you

As it is to me

 

You don’t get my tears

They’re sacred and you lost that privilege

Don’t come crawling back to me

If the finish line isn’t what you thought it would be

You can keep some of my love

But you’re not a priority

Because at this point, that’s clearly how you feel about me

After all of the positives, how bittersweet

 

There won’t be a happy or sad ending

You’re so focused on beginning

That you never finish anything

Every sign was there, but I chose not to see them

 

Good thing we have so many memories

Otherwise, you’d probably forget about me

Don’t worry, you’ll always be important to me

You’re not going to lose me

But it’s time to face the music

You really missed out

And I can’t help it

If I end up making you regret it

 

A stanza for each letter of your name

That continues to haunt me

But I vow to stop letting it own me

I won’t wait if there’s nothing worth waiting for

There it is

There’s that lesson I needed to learn

If sacrifice, honesty, loyalty, compassion, integrity, kindness, intelligence, beauty, empathy, talent, and transparency

Weren’t enough for you

Then, I don’t know what to tell you

Just kidding

never run out of choice words

Burning Alive

You were never invisible to me

You once made time worth waiting for

What happened to that?

You lost yourself so fast

 

I weep for the jet black heart

That’s been ripped from your chest

Stomped on, molded, and watered down

So that the wicked witch can look her best

 

Jealousy and concern aren’t synonymous

You flew through turbulence

Began to fully love yourself

Then suddenly, fell into a snake pit

 

The real you is still in there somewhere

But it’s hard to look at you the same

Because you’re relying on artificial light

And swallowing poison like it’s your last breath

Any color in your ink stain fading away

 

It’s the season of forced love

You’re drowning in paradise

Back in the real world, it’s winter

Yet, I feel like I’m burning alive