Pious Hallway

Time always seems to move

Too fast or too slow

And when it stands still,

That’s when I need to move

It’s okay to be unsure

But the thought of being unsure forever

Terrifies me

 

I want to be seen for what I am

Not what my fear chooses to reveal

 

Am I wrong for believing

That several of my impossible ideas

Are actually possible?

Is the water that I dove into

Too deep or just right

For all of these new heights I’m reaching?

 

What if there is no other side

And we’re just told to make the best

Of what we don’t have

I’m over it

Yet, still stressed

Why am I like this?

 

I can’t be forced to feel what I don’t

 

You can’t fly without falling

But doesn’t falling lead to broken wings?

Then, how will you ever fly again?

We’re all going to die someday anyway

The flight won’t even last

 

I think it’s time to fight the power

That I didn’t choose

Worthless

I stare at myself

In the mirror

Hating what stares back

Pointing out all my flaws

And wishing for what I lack

My insecurities

Get the best of me

 

I don’t feel beautiful

I can’t do anything right

I’m not special

I don’t shine under any spotlight

I fall behind

The ones that are priceless

I’m just worthless

 

I sit and cry

I’m not important

If I had something to say

No one would care

I dream in nightmares

Because I’ll never be good enough

Not even for love

 

I don’t belong anywhere

I can’t try new things

I’m always scared

I want to be somebody

That’s worth something

 

My life is pointless

I should end it

I’m just worthless…

 

I stare at myself

In the mirror

Accepting what stares back

Ignoring all my “flaws”

And loving what I have

My insecurities

Do not define me

 

I feel beautiful

There’s a lot I’ve done right

I am special

I don’t need a spotlight

I’m far ahead of

The ones that are “priceless”

I am not worthless

 

I stand and smile

I am important

If I had something to say

There is always someone who cares

I dream sweetly of past nightmares

Because there’s no such thing as being enough

We all deserve love

 

I belong somewhere

I don’t have to try everything

But I won’t be drowned by my fears

Everybody is a somebody

Worth everything

 

My life is limitless

I should keep it

I am not worthless

Pedestal

You want me to grow

So you make me feel small

You want me to heal

So you reopen old wounds

You want the best for me

So you throw your worst at me

You want me to be happy

So you take my happiness away

I’m your pageant girl!

Oh my god

I’m worthy?

What an honor

Me being free

To express my own emotions

Oh the horror!

I make you so proud

You manipulate others

Into thinking everything’s perfect

That way, they’ll never see

How you manipulate me

What a pretty face I have

What a smart brain I have

What a hard worker I am

What a talent for writing I have

You brag about me in public

And drown me in private

Step on my oversensitive little soul

To inflate your ego

Like a parade float balloon

I’m your prized possession

Your fragile sacrifice

I bet that you believe in the saying

”Blood is thicker than water”

So, how would you react

If you ever discovered

That your baby’s tears

Grew up to be blood

That gushes like a river

Because we are all only human

And walls crumble

And when dams break

Skin is only as tough as porcelain

I’m your favorite decoration

Your brokenhearted doll

Forever questioning myself

Questioning my worth

Because you put me

On a pedestal

Just to bring me down

For the sake of

Raising yourself up

Ashes Ashes

When the sky falls

And angels cry

When no one cares

To see the sadness behind your smile

When the sea dries up

And the bridges collapse

When no one cares

To remind you that you’re enough

I’ll be here

I’m here for you

 

Ashes ashes

We all fall down sometimes

My pain is yours

And yours is mine

No one deserves to be left behind

Like ashes scattered in the wind

We will rise

 

When you give away your love

But it’s never returned

So, you play pretend

And smile even though it hurts

When the mirror

Becomes an ex-best friend

And you’re losing faith

That beginnings can lead to happy endings

I’ll be here

I’m here for you

 

I’ll be your hand to hold

I’ll be your room to grow

This candle is still burning

And when the cold wind blows

You won’t be alone

In your own home

Over the Edge

I know good and well

That I’m flawed

I don’t need your constant reminders

I am so aware

That I make mistakes

I don’t need you to make me feel worse

You think you know me

Yet, treat me like a check box

On your to-do list

You think you’re helping me

But you ignore when I’m drowning

I don’t need saving

 

If you care so much

Then where were you every time

A part of me died

Where the hell were you

When all I needed

Was someone to talk to

You want every pretty piece of me for yourself

Pretty pieces shatter

When you drive them over the edge

This pedestal you put me on

Is way too tall

And if I fall,

I’ll lose it all

 

Life is hard

Life is unfair

We all need someone to love

Someone to be there

I try my best

Sometimes, my flame will flicker out

So, how dare you

Put words in my mouth

You have such a hero complex

You thrive off of hypocrisy

But I’m always learning

And my hero is in me

 

If you want me to fly

Then stop imitating gravity

If you want me to smile

Then stop making me cry

If you want me to be confident

Then don’t be my demons’ friends

If you love me

Then let me write my own story

Everlasting Truth

Push every lie out of your mind

You won’t be walking that lonely road

There is a place

Where love takes over hate

And someday, you will find it

And it will never go away

 

I will always be around

Never far behind

I am with you until the end

You can shine

Get the positive message

It will be alright

Because we’re in these hard times together

And that’s the everlasting truth

 

You have always wanted to fit in

But I won’t let you be alone

This war won’t last forever

Peace will reign soon

I will always be your friend

Faith will keep you strong

And it’s true

Good things can still happen for you

 

Hold on

I won’t let you fall

Drink from the fountain of youth

Of everlasting truth

I will be by your side

You still have a chance at life