It’s Getting Dark

Once I’m in, all I want is out

I’ll never be the same

But I saw the opportunity and took it

Vampire bites and dreams of games

That are constantly played in real life

Little did my inner child know

Forced pity makes me sick

I don’t need it from you if it’s nothing more than a requirement

 

I think a part of me is scared to achieve

Because it could be taken from me

I know I should be living for myself

So, don’t abuse my love because I still need to use it

 

I join to avoid

It’s no problem

The air is getting heated

We have to suffocate to enjoy the party

They took the red pill and they took the blue

I cried in the bathroom and took the purple

It’s all uphill from here

Because I’ve already been down

Time to be more alone than feel it

 

Caught in the pouring rain

With no idea what kind of moment to have

To let it be depressing

To come alive

Or ignore it

Just another rainy day or night

A member of too many cliques to count

And every single one has a loose screw

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Plot Twist

She seems easy to impress

Is that why you halfheartedly decided to shoot your shot

And it happened to work out?

I was impressed by everything you did too, but what for?

 

She glows by sunlight

Just like you

I glow by moonlight

Guess neither of you can handle the truth

 

What a coincidence

That you can put “poison” in front of her name

And it would make sense

I see a repeat of history in your future

She seems to adore the spotlight attached to your name

 

Maybe I am jealous

But I’m also hurt and betrayed

Sure, I’ll fully get over it someday

But why should I stay silent in the shadows

For your comfort?

 

You lied

In exchange for my honesty

She may have known you for a long time

But I’ve known you longer

We were growing until you started shrinking

You take me all the way to nothing

Because fuck my feelings

 

You can still be a muse

But you won’t catch me wasting any more love poems on you

I never wanted to feel this way

I saw the good in you all the time

Turns out I only paid attention to the good

And when you made your choice behind my back,

I got sunburned

I’m not wrong unless by some miracle, you prove otherwise

And last at least a year together

She can paraphrase what you literally just said

And you see art

I could’ve opened the doors to new dimensions for you

You’re not as deep as you think you are

Keeping my distance so that you’ll have no control over me

My broken heart will also leave a trail of blood

You’ll never have the guts to forget me

I’ll take over the world by storm

Better than you

 

I doubt you’ll even read this

You’re always busy, which translates to self-involved

And if by chance, you are reading this

It’s too late

The plot twist is you didn’t save my life

I did

Fuck your pride

Brave and Covered in Blood

The sound of silence can be deafening

Standardization was never enough to fix us

Chaotic good is my hero

Wearing white in hopes of being stained red

Blood red, cheered up with wine

Your closest family and friends aren’t that innocent either

Change is the devilish angel there is

Are you in or out?

 

Battle cry of the breakthrough battle

Previously hidden confidence

The sharpest sword is combining it with vulnerability

 

Take a piece of me

But it will always come back to me

Cut me open

And I’ll sew my own stitches

Spill my guts

I swallow truth until I’m broken enough

To break you

Strike you like a viper and you never saw it coming

 

Delicate, sensitive, but not weak

Stab my heart and I only get stronger

Play me for a fool

And I’ll prey on the predator

 

Sleeping Beauty became nightmare fuel

Suffocate me

And I learn to breathe more freely

Kill me

And I’ll haunt you for the rest of your life

And into the afterlife

The wicked deserve no rest

The damsel-in-distress always had dreams

I’ve always been so sweet and put together, right?

But everything is not what it seems

Memorable

Take your hand off of my heart and go

Me being alone is nothing new

Gives me room to breathe and grow

I’ll never let you take away

The smile that you put on my face

 

We have something

But it’s not as special to you

As it is to me

 

You don’t get my tears

They’re sacred and you lost that privilege

Don’t come crawling back to me

If the finish line isn’t what you thought it would be

You can keep some of my love

But you’re not a priority

Because at this point, that’s clearly how you feel about me

After all of the positives, how bittersweet

 

There won’t be a happy or sad ending

You’re so focused on beginning

That you never finish anything

Every sign was there, but I chose not to see them

 

Good thing we have so many memories

Otherwise, you’d probably forget about me

Don’t worry, you’ll always be important to me

You’re not going to lose me

But it’s time to face the music

You really missed out

And I can’t help it

If I end up making you regret it

 

A stanza for each letter of your name

That continues to haunt me

But I vow to stop letting it own me

I won’t wait if there’s nothing worth waiting for

There it is

There’s that lesson I needed to learn

If sacrifice, honesty, loyalty, compassion, integrity, kindness, intelligence, beauty, empathy, talent, and transparency

Weren’t enough for you

Then, I don’t know what to tell you

Just kidding

never run out of choice words

Breathe

Junkyard of smashed alarm clocks

Intelligence is nothing without discipline

Catch my breath and let go

 

I can handle rejection

I’m used to it

That sounds like a joke, but it’s sad

Because it’s true

You can’t tell me not to feel hurt

When I am hurt

Single lovers learn to embrace solitude

 

Fuck it, I’ll get candid

I’ve been single since the day I was born

That sounds like a joke, but it’s the truth

Discovered how to change my thinking from

“I wasn’t enough for them”

To “they weren’t enough for me”

You learn to appreciate your own company

found my bed of roses

And have taken care of myself many times

 

Comparison is truly the thief of joy

Especially when you begin to understand

That everyone has their own path

Loneliness is inevitable

But you’re never truly alone

There will always be someone who understands

Who will listen

Who won’t leave you abandoned

 

Piles of books, filled journals, and miscellaneous papers

Any relationship is nothing without communication

Catch my breath and let go

 

Truth hurts, but I’ll always prefer it

Lying to me is one of the worst things you can do to me

Because my intuition is six steps ahead

The bodyguard for my loving heart

And I don’t take inauthenticity lightly

Do you really want to lose the trust

Of the one who would give you everything?

I’ll see you for who you truly are

I’ll hear everything you think, but don’t say

I’ll prioritize your actions over your cheap words

And I’ll write about it all

With beauty and scary accuracy

 

Don’t tell me that I’ll find someone someday

I’ve heard it too many times to count

You’re not making me feel any better

I know I will

Don’t tell me I need to make myself less

In order to obtain something more

Sounds like you’ve spent your whole life lying to yourself

While I’ve spent mine finding and loving myself

 

Keep intentions clear

Get sad, angry, and let it all out

Breathe again

 

Hell hath no fury like a woman

Who has the power to freeze it over

Clueless Dumpster Fire

Your friends and family would’ve loved me

Too bad that you didn’t

But that’s not what this is about

 

You called me hot and sexy

I never failed to turn you on

I supported you in everything you needed support for

Then, I was easy to ignore

Every single time you fell for someone else

Yet, you told me you weren’t interested in anyone

 

No one can say that I’m dwelling on the past

Because you’re still the same person in the present

No change or growth whatsoever

You frown on players

But you’re a champion at playing the victim

You weren’t a stroke of good luck

You were a mistake

I was insecure and lonely

So, I drowned in your shallowness

 

You say you hate drama

Yet, stay friends with all of your exes

Including the ones who were abusive or cheated on you

There’s a fine line between forgiveness and blissful ignorance

So many things about you just scream hypocrite

I feel blessed and grateful that I dodged a bullet

 

You can’t handle me

Because you don’t deserve me

By the way, it’s creepy

To post personal pictures of a crush

On specific social medias

Just because she can’t see it

I can’t afford to trust advice

From the nice guy who cried wolf

 

You are hopelessly in love with romanticizing obsession and desperation

You and your new flame are obviously so into each other

Because she’s the female version of you

She complements you perfectly!

That wasn’t a compliment

Rhapsodic

I promise that what seems permanent will pass

True love isn’t always tough

Demons on demons, stuck like glue

I feel what you attempt to disguise

You can’t remember to forget

You’re angry at your anger

Sad about your sadness

Nothing makes sense, yet everything does

 

Make space on your phone

Make space in your mind

Anyone who wronged you doesn’t deserve to miss you

There are new memories to make

And stronger stories to write

 

Your heart broke in several directions

But the war is over

They made up their minds

And made one of the worst decisions of their lives

But look on the bright side

Because there is a gold one

You’re finally free

 

You are an ethereal, impenetrable poet

You and I both know it

That person, their people, their city of devils?

All nothing

I think you’re the best of them all