The past keeps making a comeback
Bones ache underneath youthful skin
Who gave the toxic waste a microphone?
Got any spare guts to spill?
It’s a starry night
If only we cared enough to see it
Fires are drop dead beautiful
Be alright for a few hours
The night is almost over
Have you found your purpose yet?
It’s safe to lose yourself here and now
And look as good as you’re trying to feel
Chew and swallow
Crushed or cubed ice
Donate your soul for research
Take a hike and follow the path
That was strayed from
Peace and quiet seems too sweet and quiet
Giving your worth away
To a debt that won’t leave you alone
What are you left with?
The past keeps making a comeback
Flowers wilt in an endless downpour
Question every question
Because questions make decisions
What day is it?
They’re all starting to bleed together
I like growing my bangs out
So that they can’t see me cry
They hate it when I cry
It’s a painful sight
Imagine how I feel
Why hit me with your best shot
When you could just try not to hit me
I’m not who I used to be
I am unapologetically me
This hurts, but I know it will be worthwhile
I’ve been washed away
That’s when I found the sweetest shore
The needle in the haystack got swallowed by my heart
I can’t dance without tears in my eyes
How am I?
How am I?
How am I not insane?
All work and no play
Nearly killed me
All play and no work
Also nearly killed me
Awake and asleep at the same time
What time is it?
That’s dominated so much of my life
That it barely matters anymore
Am I starting to deteriorate again?
I swear that I didn’t mean to
I’m always at my best
After I fall apart
Why is that?
We’ve taken a break from outside communication
To form a deeper understanding of each other
Creating connections for the long run
I’m sleeping awake
While you’re dreaming in front of me
The upside is going down
Insides are spilling out
The numbness wears off
When my feelings hone in on you
The air I’m breathing is fresher than before
Yet, the butterflies refuse to migrate
I never said that you’re my only source of happiness
I never said that anything is guaranteed
No one and nothing are in our way anymore
Life has become more “with” than “without”
I can’t change your mind for you
Crying about difficulties is much easier
When you know for a fact
That you’re not the only one
Drop the act for just a moment
For the uncensored truth
I seem to find you every time you’re jaded
Look, we match!
Same thing happens when we’re better
We’d love to be in love
Circumstance pulls us apart
And slams us back together
Hearts underground like tectonic plates
Surrender to fate
My insides are always changing
While my outsides pretty much stay the same
How would anyone know that I was sad
Unless I said so?
Escaped from an escape to create some semblance of home
I need to love myself like I mean it
Everyone only shows you what they want you to see
Or at least what they want you to believe
My thoughts tend to overpower my voice
I wish I could manage this construct we call time
But I can’t because I’m human
It’s easier to run out of control
A juxtaposition of supply and demand
I have myself
When I’m okay
I have myself
I am okay
For the time being
Don’t think like that
I will be okay
I’m a wanderer
Just as much as I crave normality
Break me down like an esteemed literary work
So much I want to do
So much I’m not sure how I’m going to do
Leave me alone and help me
At least I’ve got you
You deal with it too
That’s also a con
Because you won’t always be there
Correction: you’re always here
But not always on time
Don’t you just love loving someone?
Sputtering words like too much maple syrup
Hitting the showers to be alone
I’ve got the practice
I’ve got the experience
National parks of motivation dying off
Yet, multiple halls of fame for ambition
I would rather travel than time travel
Regrets won’t ever not be painful
Crave something sweeter
It takes time to be satisfied
If you make it to that point
You have appeal
If you’re not satisfied with your life yet,
Then spice it up
I keep losing my balance
Some part of me is always hurting
Is there such a thing as an easy process?
I want to be busy being free
So that the days won’t feel so long and empty
Or short and fatal
I can’t come up with an excuse
When I’m trying to tell the truth
I’m fine in this moment
Nobody and nothing to compare
Let me be okay, alright?
Living out a dream
Lost in a carbon monoxide cloud
In my own head
I refuse to just sit and stay
I’m finding my place of peace
I’m running to you
That’s where I am
Hard to believe that home is where the heart is
Because a broken heart can mean a broken home
Why does my brain work against me?
I thought it was supposed to take care of me
My coping strategies need to get anatomically correct
Talking out loud about it
Reminds me to think about it
And now, I can’t repress it
Because I’m reliving it
My skull and bones cross
Nerves tying themselves in knots
Gut gets lost in all of the troubling feelings
I didn’t get the memo
And misread the memento
It’s not easy to reach out
For a solid, visible hand
Enemy armed forces keep coming from afar
Sometimes, I can predict the future
But to be honest, it’s not always an educated guess
Where did the day go?
Actually, where did the years go?
How many are left?
It’s like flying in a sky that’s falling
Time always seems to move
Too fast or too slow
And when it stands still,
That’s when I need to move
It’s okay to be unsure
But the thought of being unsure forever
I want to be seen for what I am
Not what my fear chooses to reveal
Am I wrong for believing
That several of my impossible ideas
Are actually possible?
Is the water that I dove into
Too deep or just right
For all of these new heights I’m reaching?
What if there is no other side
And we’re just told to make the best
Of what we don’t have
I’m over it
Yet, still stressed
Why am I like this?
I can’t be forced to feel what I don’t
You can’t fly without falling
But doesn’t falling lead to broken wings?
Then, how will you ever fly again?
We’re all going to die someday anyway
The flight won’t even last
I think it’s time to fight the power
That I didn’t choose