As soon as I finally escape from a depressive episode,
You plunge me right back in
I go from a ball of joy
To a tangled tumbleweed of anxiety
Drowning in this stressful environment
It’s hard to breathe
And you can be hard to love
Cinderella isn’t even my favorite Disney princess
Yet here I am, constantly relating to her
I didn’t ask to be born
Definitely didn’t ask to be born into this
I love you, but sometimes I can’t stand you
Of course, there are some things you can’t help
But there are plenty that you do purposely
I’m practically raising my mother
Before I even have kids of my own
I’m the eldest daughter
And brokenhearted
Tired in every way possible
Call me strong
Call me sweet and kind
Call me brave and resilient
It’s still traumatic
This pain is a part of me
That barely anyone sees
Shannon Hollander 