Skip forward in time
To a bright future
A better life
Walk away from doubt
Four empty walls
Since the occupants
Went to go frolic
In the sunflowers
Turn the car around
A culture of hope is right behind you
All you need is love,
Reciprocation,
And success
Read my lips
All I want is for my best to be enough
Existence is exhausting
Aware of everything
I’m satisfied and happy
With who I’ve become as a person
And I’m still growing
Old beginnings with new endings
Been getting the hang of
What I used to only struggle with
Slowly falling harder
For love each day
I don’t want to live a life
Of regrets and what ifs
Having the confidence to make the first move
And really pursue someone
Or something
I care about is
Empowering
Once again,
I reprogrammed my brain wrong
I can receive all of the advice, encouragement, and criticism
In the world
But in the end, it’s up to me
Looking back and comparing then to now
Really breaks and soothes my heart
I know what’s best for me
Exactly how much do I believe it though?
Self-sabotage party for one
Like my soul is decomposing
Playing with fire
Because I believe in magic
Optimistic optical illusions
I don’t know what I miss more
I kind of wish
That expectations didn’t exist
They’re so divisive
High and low through highs and lows
Rarely correlate
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Thanks for picking me up
And being patient with me through all of this
I could never be stoic
It’s impossible
I’ve got the world on my shoulders
And the world’s emotions in my heart
Being sensitive doesn’t mean
That I’m stupid, weak, or naive
My heart beats for love
And that gives me all of the strength
That I could ever need
You don’t know what I’m thinking
But I know how you’re feeling
Because I likely feel it too
Tender and tough
I won’t hide how I feel
Or how you make me feel
For your comfort
I feel with my whole body
Taking over all of my thoughts
Never really over
I’m a sensitive soul
Must be where my wisdom comes from
There is no textbook
That can teach you life lessons
There is no shame or abnormality
In having and showing feelings
It’s contagious
Overwhelmed with tears, smiles, screams, conversations, and silence
It’s not easy
But I wouldn’t change it
I was born ready
Damn, where is time going?
I’m seriously starting to think that it’s not just me
It gets tiring and stressful
And hard to find the right words to start
I need to start surrounding myself
With more positive vibes and energy
Because I’ve been experiencing
So much personal inner turmoil
And absorbing all of the negativity around me lately
I need to better practice self-care,
Throw myself into my passions,
And apply that same work ethic
To my responsibilities
I need to be more open with the people
Who both care about me and can understand
Exactly what I’m going through
I need to remember
That I don’t have to fight every battle
And deal with everything alone
I could love myself more,
But I don’t hate myself
I need to not be so hard on myself
Because not everything is my fault
And when something is my fault and/or I could improve,
I need to stop burying it
Until it explodes later on
I have the power
To make certain changes in my life
And I need to practice what I preach
Only then, will I reach my full potential
And truly feel healthy
Physically
Mentally
Emotionally
Socially
Spiritually
Spending some time alone is much better than
Being in a toxic relationship
With yourself
Leave that and stay alive
One more day
One more night
And another
And another
It’s going to be alright
Put the harmful objects down
And pick yourself up
It’s too easy to fall over the edge
You are still here
Not everyone who will love you
Has met you yet
One more word
One more touch
And another
And another
Until it doesn’t feel like too much
Your existence is not a sin
Breathe out and in
There are so many people in awe of you
And all that you do
The evil voice in your head is wrong
You’re not alone
You’re never alone
You’ve never been alone
Somebody has been where you are
Has felt how you feel
Could even be going through it
Right along with you
From the bottom of rock bottom
To the top of the world
His hair continues to fall in his face
Even when cut
I don’t want to be built up
Only to be let down
Clumsy and we can’t help it
He speaks a million words a minute
And I would travel a thousand miles
To listen to and absorb
Every single one
I want to learn everything
That he could possibly teach
Strength in fragility
I thought we were completely different
But we’re practically one and the same
Schools of fish in the deep baby blue
Students of life
And all of its wonders
He is older than me
Yet seems so much younger
So wild, free, and put together
Sugar sweet poison
Yellow, the “happy” color
Yellow is my favorite color
Flowers line the city streets
Like petals on the ground
Of a wedding aisle
His smile is seriously beautiful
I long to be his special girl someday
And I’m screwed because of it
Small town girl
Big city girl
Suburban gothic
In my sometimes lonely world
You cut me open
And I never stop bleeding
Even after that wound heals
I’m an emotional livestream
Alone, I fall apart
Alone, I put myself back together
Picking up the pieces
And flinging them like ashes
Into the ocean
Cried tears in oceans and rivers
And I’ll do it again
As many times as needed
Low self-worth took a toll on my mental health
But with each lost love,
I learn how to love myself
I remember my younger self
And how I always wanted
To make myself proud
From feeling small, I grow
I was vulnerable with you
And you took advantage of it
As a result, I found strength in it
And received a kingdom of love
After the reign of pain
To figure me out,
You have to figure out my heart
Hard work doesn’t just build character
It can also tear it down
Talk the talk in public
Cry when alone
Every mistake treated like a failure
A wreck
Milestones delayed
Ringing alarm clock is a sucker punch
Pre-stressed about future stress
Simultaneously not trying enough
And trying too hard
My past and present selves
Constantly battle it out
To stand on the highest step
Cheering up is like finding an anchor
That can float
Let’s not forget
To start the beginning
Of the story of us
I’ll wear your shirts
If you wear your heart on your sleeve
Between you and me
No broken hearts now
Just this immaculate love
Let’s talk about sex
Let’s talk about you and I
The good and bad
Our whole lives
Let’s make history
Let’s imagine there’s a bed
In every room
Keep coming back for more
I’ll take the world off of your shoulders
If you are my lover
The love of my life
Every page in our photo album framed
Moving up and down
Through the ups and downs
Stop the world and be right here
Let’s make an eternal deal
Do I want you?
Do I need you?
Yes
I do
I do
